FINALLY.

i have been so determined to blog but havent even dug out some time
the projects i have are keeping my group mates and me
in school till about 5/6?
then it will be either dinner with them (shuxian and shirley)
by the time i get my bus which comes once every 2000 years by a way
and reach home, it will be close to nine

then it will be my daily stoning session
whereby i will spend time with my family stoning
awesome isnt it

i will be looking forward at the tv,
i dont remember what i watch mostly
the things i am supposed to do just run through my head

its also frustrating that my body is not strong enough
for me to be so hard on her
i feel that i shouldnt!
God's temple and im treating His temple quite badly
by little sleep, little food, little blood. literally.

a bit late to have a new year resolution
i would want to have a proper sleeping routine,
eat my meals and not forget
thankfully my stomach usually dont let me forget
its just that sometimes work seems more important
i cant believe my eyes!
you cant believe yours either!
im saying that work is more important than food!

i just had the presentation on the Holocaust
i guess, i was quite badly affected by the plight of victims
this massacre was none like any other
i wondered, as the victims get tortured slowly to death
what is the worst torture?

then i read this article about how this mother fed her
baby urine to stop the baby from crying to not alert the soldiers
and the baby died from choking
the mother went crazy and carry her dead baby around
screaming for people to feed her baby
when people took the baby from her hands,
it was already dead for a few days

then i realised, that no matter what torture
be it physically, mentally, emotionally
are all equally painful and hard to take
there should not be any comparison of torture
the man who was slowly tortured to death suffered as much
as parents who kill their own child to end the suffering


enough of the serious talk,
i am starving and sleepy
i want to at least satisfy one and eat soon
the sleep on the bus first time today,
was the first time i slept, without knowing i slept