COST.

the wind was cold, along with it came the smell of the sea,
and mashed with memories
there is nowhere to run sometimes,
protection from hurt is represented by a door
that stays bolted and shut from the world outside

inside here, there is nothing that i dont want to see
no one i cannot talk to.
i feel safe being here, sometimes.

words are powerful, they have the ability to build someone up,
or tear them down to the very last of their soul
just because words dont take much effort to say,
doesnt mean the impact of it will be any lesser than that insignificant effort
you made to blurt them out.

what was the intention? right now, does it matter?
even if we fought, killed, bled and died
will the end result remain the way it is?
its sad that sometimes, the entire situation depends on one person
and that one person doesnt let go,
along with him, he dragged loved ones
shackled them to his own pain and memories
forced to remain in darkness forever


when will you let go?

SPLIT

gan qing shi gui zai quan zhi, shi zhong ru yi.

the meaning of this sentence is,
worthy are the feelings only for one woman
i remember pastor saying before that

the sexiest man in the world is the man that can only satisfy one woman and be satisfied by that same one woman his entire life.

wonder how is there always room for another person in
someone's heart,
how can you be holding the hand of one, and dreaming of another?


is that not...?

WEE HOURS

interview's today! its still okay i guess [:
and im still awake watching DVDs.
i love the new show i brought, and and i cant stop watching!
im officially addicted
really romantic!
the way the lady described love is really thought provoking.
let me try and translate it to english. honestly the chinese version brings out more meaning.

what does giving of yourself mean?
when everything, even your life dont matter, your heart only belongs to that person, no matter how painful, hurting, you cannot leave, or turn your back. no choices, no hesitations, the only way.

a pity my computer cannot type chinese, but i shall put the hanyupinyin version here!
i hope you all get it! or else you can ask me to repeat it to you. ;D

zen yang cai suan fu qu zi ji de zhen xing?
dang zi ji de yi qie, shen zhi lian xing ming dou bu zhong yao,
ni de xing, zhi shu yu ta zhe ke ren
ji shi rang ni ru he xing tong, xing shang,
ni ye wu fa li qi, yi wu fan gu
mei you xuan zhe, mei you you yu
fei ru ci bu ke

here you go!
theres nothing much to my week or my day
but rather alot of thoughts i would rather keep it inside
till that first flight that brings you home to me


id always be waiting for you

I MISS YOU.

i feel insignificant sometimes.

ITS LONG GONE

a possibly sad note to a day,
the rain brings a mixture of emotions that's not particularly happy
nor extremely sad

its long gone,
was the goodbye to the past, and a hello to what is going to be
cannot help but sigh, as i look outside
wishing some things can change, or some things that are going to change remain the same forever. of course, no one gets what they want really.

sometimes i wonder who cares that i care
sometimes i wonder whether things will be okay
sometimes i just dont like to be kept in the dark,
just cause its about someone i aint particularly in love with.

its frustrating to be me

MAKING LOVE OUTTA NOTHING AT ALL.

But I dont know how to leave you,
And Ill never let you fall;
And I dont know how you do it,
Making love out of nothing at all

I MISS YOU.


i hate my cramps.
i hate hate hate them.

HOLIDAYS!

its great bumming around, so very great
that im so spoilt recently!

it was mani and pedi directly after exams
then waiting for louis, sm and shaun to finish theirs
waiting includes slacking at home, waking up just to eat
and sleeping just to eat again [:

and it also includes checking my emails everyday!
so awesome.

went over to hajilane that day to take pictures!
and the pictures are up on facebook! [:

post exam activities lined up are lots!

: finish up my presents! (which im doing like mad now)
: chalet
: pulau ubin trek/walk/cycle/phototaking outing
: east coast park cycle/walk/blade
: skate my ass off (not like anyone can do that)
: helping sm diet (swim/run/jump/kick/punch)
: work ]:

of which i havent found any proper work yet
and a 9-5 job bores me to death
its the tradeoff between a good paying job and boring
or a bad paying job thats fun!

i did promise jaz that i will go back to liquid and work
and so i will,
visit me at liquid on the days i work and id get you all discounts!
just text me before you come! [:

theres really no such thing as a good paying job and fun ?
i guess not.

today's junyi's 21st birthday celebration,
i dont really understand how can i forget about it
and only remembered last night
sorry dude!

now i dont really know what to get for him,
21st is supposed to be special,
so im supposed to get something meaningful
im really bad at doing that.

TMNT's on tv, leonardo and rapahel's awesome.
the rat's not bad too.

i should be off to shower and set off to find a present
oh! maybe a tie from G2000. or something.
i remember shirle getting that for guojun.
shall lie on the sofa here a while.

alrights. laters.